A letter to Myself :)

Hey Girl,

Yes you! shy little girl sitting besides her mom holding the edge of her saree in her hand and peeking through sides what is happening around. Yes this little girl is too shy to leave her mother and go outside by herself and see the world. She even hesitates going to a nearby shop alone. She feels scared. She feels she would lost her way back home. She even doesn't go to another room without someone accompanying her. Why she is behaving like this? Nothing tragic happened to her. She gets all the love from her parents and brother. May be, she is a small little girl who happen to see lot of new people, new things, neighborhood and wonders what is all these? May be she is taking a little more time than usual to understand that this is the real world. She will grew up one day and start understanding all these.

She is a big girl now who goes to school, who has friends, who talks to people a bit more than earlier. Told you, she will be comfortable in no time. See, she is too happy getting her own books, talking to her friend over the landline. Oh, she has a video game too that she shares with the brother. Mann, they can spend whole day playing Mario over that TV. And mom, she has to miss her afternoon daily soaps, these kids won't let her watch the TV. She is happy. She laughs, smiles, goes out and play with neighborhood kids. She is evolving.

Shhh.. Don't disturb her. She is studying. Oh she has exams in few days. she looks tensed. No baby, you don't have to be worry about anything. I know you are more talented than you think you are. No no.. i am not just empathizing you. I have seen you reaching the heights which at this point you have no idea about. You will grow up well and good. You will make your parents proud. Whatever you think you don't have it, you will get it and by your own. For that you will have to work hard and i know you don't mind that. Just want to tell you that you do your thing with all your heart and you will be pretty amazing. Trust me, you are!

Oh See! You did it. You are outperforming yourself at every stage lady. See i told you, you have the potential. Wait wait! Its not the end. You just cracked what you have set your goal initially.  Life starts now. Since you have those papers which say you have done a pretty good job at studies and now it's your turn to earn. Oh, that is the thing we knew from the beginning but wasn't concerned about as this was the second thing for consideration. Getting good grades was the first one.I know you are thinking your life sucks now and I can't agree more.

But life is the best teacher. You have already learnt a lot of lessons till now and going to learn more ahead. Now you are big girl who faces the world like a rock. You will have your own struggles but this time you won't go around your mom and hide yourself. You will face them with a smile on your face. Oh yes by the way, i heard from many people you have a million dollar smile. So put it on always and rock your world. There are many things on your way which are going to surprise you and will make you fall in love with you more and more again. Never get distracted and when you are sad and feel like you’re nothing, think about what you really want. Make it a good thought. It will happen for you. Hang in there, your life will be amazing, you’ll see.

With love,💓
Your upgraded version,
Natasha :)